i felt your heart radiating against my chest
for the last time yet again
and i asked you to stay
against my better judgement
you're not here for the long run
i could help you find
the words that bind you to my heart
but i know you
you'll find a way to fuck that up too
once upon a time
i was mesmerized by your lies
those days are long gone
every rise you get from me
is the hill you want to die on oh no (let me do the honors)
i only love you more now that you've hurt me
it's such a shame, you'll never be the
that got away
cause all of the fears that you had writing
turns out you made them all up inside your head
and all of the tears i shed in fighting
turns out your wasted, missing me in bed
buried a knife into your heart
but then you didn't die
jack nicholsoned your door down
and yet i didn't go
i would have made you the world in my eyes
but you're sick and i can't be the one to get you well
it's kind of sweet that you want me to choose
you think i don't know you know i'll always double down
please stop breaking my arms
to tell me you're sad it rains like every god damned day
i wanted to leave you alone
and yet, yet i didn't go
credits
released September 2, 2021
produced by mermaid heaven
A nostalgic record full of ambling rhythms, vivid imagery, and cotton-soft melodies tapped out on an ever-present ’70s synth-organ hybrid. Bandcamp Album of the Day Nov 11, 2021